These few days I've been under tremendous stress. Having 2 projects and 2 tests within a short deadline is bad enough, unable to think properly and showing creativity, having different opinions and different channels of communication is worse. Tml is Justin's bday and yet I can't fully enjoy his bday and worry abt the deadlines. I can't celebrate for him early too since sch ends at 6? Then things start to go horribly wrong too. I dun understand a single lecture either and I have no one to ask for help. I used to have Haziq and Lutfi to approach to whenever I have problems, but now, I have no one. Seemingly yes I do look like I have a class and a grp of friends, but somehow something tells me I can't ask them cos they have no time or something. Her condition has also gotten worse, regardless how strong she may seem, she is very weak and unstable. Even in sch I constantly worry abt her. I feel very stressed and afraid, Im breaking down.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
I haven't post for awhile. In fact, it has been more than 1 month since I last posted. Too many stuff have happened during this 1 mth. Ever since the 2nd semester started, I've been bombarded by work and the lectures r getting more difficult to follow. Then I have a fam to take care of in audi, making sure it's staying strong, peaceful and happy. Then of course there is the usual pasttime of watching animes to relax. But when I looked at myself and some people actually mentioned it, I have been quite moody recently. I dunno wat caused this, maybe a thousand and 1 things. But in reality, I'm feeling more afraid than ever right now...