Somehow the world seems to crumble down when all problems arise at the same time. My exams aren't going smoothly, having mindblocks and all. The fam is dying with friends leaving. But most of all, I've received news that her days are numbered. She would leave this world and me any moment. Just to top it off, my siblings especially my brother keeps lecturing me. I was very tired and I have exams, but my brother keeps telling me to mop the floor, do this do that. I dun even have the motivation or mind to study anymore. But I dun have any valid LOA to take the makeup test instead. Everything seems so dim right now. Sometimes I doubt the existence of God, and today I doubted even more. Many questions appeared, one of which is why God has to take her away from me. Even writting this post seems difficult, feeling something stuck in my throat, tears in my eyes. 2008 has indeed been a very different and difficult year. I dun even noe if she would still be here on Christmas. But please, if dear heavenly father ever hears my prayer, I beg u to let her stay....