Lol. Have been slping very very very late this few days. Audiing has nvr been so fun for quite a long time alrdy. Joined a fam, the ppl r quite nice. Then got this crapper damn retarded lol, play with him right, cannot focus properly one. Laugh thru out. Then this girl, my gosh...... If she ever becomes a fugitive or a burglar, she cannot stay escaped for more than 1hr. Anyone can basically hear her laughing every single 30 secs. U dun tell jokes she will also suddenly laugh for no reason.
I dunno why but I feel like saying Taylor Swift is omfg beautiful, her songs r omfg nice, her lyrics r omfg smooth. U MUST LISTEN TO LOVE STORY. Very very romantic.
Countdown to Zhiyu's chalet: 8 days more
Countdown to AIR Chalet: 23 days more
Countdown to cruise: 27 days more
Countdown to sch reopen: Dun wanna think abt it
Friday, February 20, 2009
Ok. End of exams, start of holidays. I fking did my best for everything, slog my ass off and stuff. End up I will get max a B? Maybe a fail? Im feeling damn fking pissed that everything is going badly for me. Say wat SPSS only 22%. But end up there r 2 fking SPSS tables and I lost 10 to 20 marks for that. Then thx to some fker's english problem, I misread the damn qns and another 4 marks fly. MCQ another fker, around 10 fly. Here fly there fly, siao liao lor.... Fail.
Saturday, February 14, 2009
Sry had been busy with projects and assignments. Didn't had time to blog. Well exams have alrdy began, with Management Organizational Behavioral and Critical Reasoning Skills. I guess I didn't do as well as I could have. There r so many things going on now that I dun even noe wat to do abt anything. I had spent 17 years without a Valentine date. This year I thought it could be different. However, ended up spending this year's Valentines Day alone agn. When I looked at myself in the mirror, I noe Im short, not typically slim with nice facial features or anything, but I noe I dun flirt around or stuff. But I just dun get why I always fail in this kind of r/s stuff. I made up a joke on me getting married and sent out wedding invitations to my exclassmates, just to have a laugh, and also to make myself feel good for once. But I guess I was just trying escape reality. Even ytd when it was Wanxuan's birthday, she's like one of my best friends ever, but I didn't do my best on the card for her. Im sry Wanxuan. I realised from last time till now, I always carry this phrase with me - I hate the feeling where I did my best, but nth good nor results appear. It's kinda true, I thought everything I did, with or without motives, I would have something in return. My exams, my studies, my friends, my life, whatever could be named. Quite a number of people said I had low confidence of myself or self-esteem. But it's not that I wanted that. If you had done ur best, yet it fails epically, wouldn't it be a waste and a shame? Optimistism is just a way of self-deceiving really. Face it, it's reality.
Not looking forward to next year's Valentines. I bet it's just gonna be yet another fking day.